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I'm the girl who is always mocked for how i look
For how i dress
What music i listen to
My opinions
My faults
My everything

I sit in bed and cry
Not because of what they say hurts
Because it does
But because I'm not appreciated

I'm alone
Wondering down a path
Called life
I try my best
But nothing works
I don't eat because I'm "too fat"
I listen to my music loud to block all the words
Those words that will stick in my head
Make me cut again

I don't want that
I just want to be freed
I feel so trapped
I cant explain it

I begin to have feelings for someone
They aren't ever mutual
I sit and realise
Once again my hopes are dashed
Its a vicious cycle
Truth is
I've never been told how to love
I've never experienced it
I'm clueless

I feel empty
Yet tears slowly roll down my flushed cheeks
I realise
My depression
Has taken hold of me
Just how I feel :/
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Laila12345 Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2014  Student General Artist
soo beautifully written , best thing I've ever read , good job!!!
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2014
Wow, thank you ever so much x:heart:x
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thatnerdyowl56 Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
You have the strength inside you to break your trap... You just have to let go of all those people who judge you, no matter how difficult it is... :heart::hug:
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2013
Awh, thank you so much for that :) it's hard because I'm so used to being judged and now Im trying to let go.. It sounds silly but yeah :hug::heart:
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thatnerdyowl56 Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
It makes perfect sense! You're so welcome!:D
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2013
Awh thank you :hug:
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TheManThatLaughed Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2012  Hobbyist Artist
Im sorry... Britain can be a real shit hole.. :tighthug:
I know you dont know me or anything but you same like a awesome person :)
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2012
Aw, thank you
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TheManThatLaughed Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2012  Hobbyist Artist
Heh heh any time :) :glomp:
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xXxAssassin1401xXx Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012
Your writing is good, but, in my opinion, I think you'll find yourself quite silly later on looking back at this. :/ I wrote a lot of stuff like this, too, and it does help, but publishing it out there is well...a bit too far.
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pingelot Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
that's almost excactly my feeling..
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012
:hug:
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ronman54 Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012
sorry :/..your awesome for sharing this im in a theatre troop in the u.s and we hear about shiz like this all the time its ignorant that people wont except other for who they are
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012
You don't need to apologise, it's not your fault. And yeah it sucks :( thanks for reading
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AussieDidge Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
A new twist on an old saying (I think): "Opinions are like arseholes, everyone has one, and often, they're full of shit."

Often those doing the mocking are the ones whose life sucks so much... they have to belittle or denigrate someone else to make themselves feel better.

Who are those people to judge? Why do they consider themselves so important? What makes their opinions sound like the word of God?

Never forget this: There may be billions of people living here, but YOU are unique to those who matter most: your family, your friends and especially, YOURSELF.

All that aside, I'll wish you well in the future. Just don't let those fools take away what sets you apart from everyone else. They're not worth the time nor the effort. :)
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012
Awh, thank you so much :) the quote mAde me smile :)
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tommyolv Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2012
people should not critizice you for who you are you should not care what they say maybe people say "you are fat" or "what you wear is ugly" but you should ask yourself do you want to be a copy of everybody who thinks they are beautiful?? and you can see that does people are always the ones who in the future will be on the streets living out of fliping burgers their whole life
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012
Awh thank you for that, thank you for reading my work:)
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MissGingerIce Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
This poem is all too relatable.
I remember when I was at this point. I felt that I could no longer fight the depression raging within me. Then, things began to change. Sure, they still aren't great, but they are improving. It has lifted my spirits and given me hope that things will change for the better.
Hang in there dear, and I pray that the same happens for you :iconcomfortplz:
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012
Awh thank you so much :) that made me smile :)
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MissGingerIce Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
You are so welcome, sweetie :iconbatglompplz:
You really do have a talent for writing poetry. It's a great outlet for feelings both good and bad. Keep it up :)
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012
Thank you :)
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AppleBetty Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
writing this sort of stuff helps drain the abscess.
publishing it makes you look like a self-absorbed whiner.
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2012
I publish my art on this website to get feedback on how to improve my work, get advice and share my feelings, isn't that what poetry is suppost to be? And when your alone you know you can express your feelings and then get feedback for your writing.
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AppleBetty Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
i wrote this kind of stuff, too, when i was young. i promise you when you look back on this, you'll be rolling your eyes. and likely writing stunning poetry by comparison.
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012
thank you :)
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MissGingerIce Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Publishing things like this can help other who are going through the same issues she is.
It's beneficial for others.
Seeing comments like this makes me wonder....If that's how you feel about this sort of poetry, why do you bother reading it? Just to insult the writer?
I'm sorry, but if you don't like it, you don't have to read it. -_-
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AppleBetty Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
i don't have to give positive feedback, either. deal with it.
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MissGingerIce Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
That's fine, but you don't have to be rude either.
There's a difference between constructive criticism and being insulting.
I'm voicing my opinion, not being immature. Since you are, I see no reason for continuing this conversation. Have a good day.
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AppleBetty Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I was honest. I didn't give mindless praise, and I didn't troll her, either. I was honest and frank in my assessment. The immature one is the oversensitive twat who uses arguments like "don't read it if you don't like it" anytime she sees negative feedback. You should wash the wax out of your ears, listen to kiakime's argument, and give it more than a half-second of thought.

Here's an idea along the same mentality as yours: if you don't like my comments, don't respond to them.
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Kiakime Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
"If you don't like it, don't read it" isn't a valid response to criticism; a comment section doesn't have to be an echo chamber of preaching to the choir. People are free to share their opinions, both positive and negative, just like artists are free to hide individual comments or disable commenting if they'd rather not get some feedback.
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MissGingerIce Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
That's true, but there's not need to be insulting to the author either.
All I meant was that if you feel that way about things like this, then why do you read them?
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Denomica-Mystique Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2012  Hobbyist Artist
I felt that way in middle school & high school. It sucked, but things did get alot better. So I hope that they did for you as well. :heart:
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2012
Awh, thank you :heart:
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Denomica-Mystique Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012  Hobbyist Artist
Anytime! =) btw I like your icon. You look very pretty!
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012
Thank you :)
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Denomica-Mystique Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012  Hobbyist Artist
Your welcome!
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FantasiaVII Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2012
...oh... Just hang in there! "...in the end, it's only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer." (Sam, The Lord of the Rings, The Two Towers ) I realize that was a really nerdy reference, but that's what helps me get by. :hug:
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2012
Awh, thank you :)
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Delta-13 Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Hey, if you need anyone to talk to I'm here. I've been through the exact same thing and sometimes still feel the same way.
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2012
Awh, thank you. Knowing other people have gone through it and have stayed strong has given me reassurance :)
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Maggot9109 Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2012  Hobbyist
Hold on, girl. Gets better, I promise.
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2012
Thank you hun
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bruised--vein Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2012
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2012
:hug:
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bruised--vein Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012
I was kind of being sarcastic. It sounds like you're just fishing for sympathy from people. You're not ugly or fat. So you shouldn't give a fucking what people say. Nor should you cut yourself for those obscene reasons.
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012
Well there's no need to be, I'm not fishing for attention, if you look at all my art work you will see its my style of writing, my style of how I express myself. I can't help how I feel about myself I've always been told I'm fat and ugly that's why I have so much self doubt,
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bruised--vein Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012
>told she's ugly and fat by some rude fags
>believes them
come on girl
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cskadoz Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2012   General Artist
:sprint: . . . :jedi: . . . :matrixfight: . . . :sprint: . . . :hug:
whao . . . first off . . . you're too damn cute to feel this way! :huggle:
second . . . i can assure you . . . other guys, guys you know . . . are watching you. hang in there . . . they will appear when you least expect. :meditate:
btw: nice piece :highfive: it speaks for everybody.
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012
Thank you :heart:
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