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EyesCan't you see it
In my eyes
Can't you tell
What is going on

People say
That eyes
Are the windows
Into the soul

So can't you see
How broken mine is
The pain is written
All over my face

Maybe that's not it
Maybe you do see
But you just
Don't care

Maybe acknowleding my life
Would tarnish
Your perfect
Little world

You think
If you pretend
I'm not there
Then it doesn't matter

Afterall
I'm not your problem
I'm just another
Sad story

Nothing you need
To worry about
Just go on living
Like I'm not there

You think because
I stay silent
That must mean
I'm okay

I scream for help
I beg for mercy
Not with my mouth
But

UntrustworthyWhat you have done can't be forgiven.
You lied to me and promised that you wouldn't tell.
But you did anyways.
A secret I told you that was for your ears only and no one else.
And yet you decided to go behind my back to spread the word.
Now, that I come to a conclusion that you can't be trusted.
The trust that I had for you is now gone.
You gave me a reason to no longer trust you with anything anymore.

Overdramatic"Overdramatic"

Nothing's changed

You're still the same

Playing the guilty card

Only gets you so far

Real victims are a mess

That wine on your pretty dress

Can in no way compare

To the bombs dropped in the air

Lie in a hole by a bay

Under gunfire ablazed

And then maybe you'll say

"I am having better days."

The dead weight that you carry

The problems you parry

Are not as bad as it seems

Go back to bed and dream

Your soul would never last

If you were given the gas

And from what I can amass

Your heart's as weak as glass

Blurring color from the scene

Overdramatic you may be

But to others you annoy

Their ears with your ploys

ComplimentsThese compliments i receive
Mess me up inside
They confuse what i believe
The negativity cant hide

'Your beautiful'
No i'm not
Have you seen me?
i'm gross.
I'm fed up of getting these things said to me
I'm used to the negativity
Its almost like i miss it
its so messed up
I don't understand

I make progress
Then fall 10 steps back
Its a vicious cycle
Over and over again
Its beginning to bore me

I get my hopes up
All the time
In the end
Its always the same
Rejection
Failure
Loneliness

Depression changes people
Many for the worse
I've become someone different
Its hard to overcome
I push the ones i love away
It all ends up in pain

I just want

She Is"She Is"

She is as delicate as a rose

That every garden grows

In the Springtime's flowers

Under Maple towers

She is like a newfound song

That I sing all day long

The melody like a symphony

Her words radiate brilliantly

She is my motivation

She is my inspiration

And everything I do

I do it just for you

She is always in my mind

Always all the time

And everywhere I hide

She finds me full in stride

She is the candle in my heart

A fragile organ once torn apart

It now beats in nervous rhythms

Like opaque light in crystal prisms

She is my will and desire

She is my force climbing higher

And when we finally reach the top

We'll

Can You Hear Me?"I want it to end. The suffering, the pain, the weariness, just everything.

I want to stop feeling like a knife has been dug into my chest, and is being twisted with every insult, being pushed in deeper with every insecurity and doubt.

I want to stop crying. Just, for one day, to not have to sit with tears pouring down my cheeks, with my arms wrapped round myself, slowly rocking.

I want to stop panicking. To stop feeling like the oxygen has left the room, leaving me gasping for breath and lifeless. Like I'm drowning on dry land, my throat closes over, and my thoughts go at a million miles an hour. Worries and obsessions fire through my bra

Still Beautiful to MeWhen people tease you for the way that you look,
Please know this isn't your war.
Close the book. Burn the pages.
Our soul is like a piece of paper,
Easily ripped to pieces,
Though beauty is hidden between pages,

You sit still contemplating how to please those you hate,
Will you become one of them, or will you be yourself?
You let your inner demons lead the way,
As you follow aimlessly, is there any point to life anymore?
Your whole world turns grey,
Your eyes go blank; will you make it through the night?

Your life is still worth the pain,
It gets better in the end.
I know because I've been through the same.
My feet have the s

As Fragile as a House of GlassYou are faking it again –
You know the one I mean.
When you pretend to be happy
You can only injure yourself.
Is that your reasoning?
You're wrong.
The burden you bear is invisible but solid,
And its weight presses on everyone around you.
You cannot do this alone.
You are not Atlas.
You can ask for help.
It's hard.
The cherry red you spill
Tastes like iron to the ground
And licorice to the crowd.
Having a clear canvas
Does not mean you have to paint.
You're hurt.
You are not a little Barbie.
Makeup will not give you
An unbroken smile.
You were not made to have skin
That barely surrounds your spine.
Just breathe.

Something I'm NotI'm not pretty,
I'm not beautiful,
I'm not gorgeous nor cute.
But I've always found myself different,
Different from the rest.

I don't always like the same music,
Or have the same taste,
I don't always think of what I'll do tomorrow,
Because I know I may not even have tomorrow.

The Lion King wasn't always my favorite movie,
Not at all.
I usually preferred Robin Hood ,
Or my real favorite, Mulan

I write in composition books,
About my sadness and grief,
But I wanted to tell you today,
That I may be something I'm not.

I may not have blonde hair,
People tell me it's light brown.
I may not have blue eyes,
They have an od

Love is LoveI wish

I want

I desire

I dream about
I obsess over

I hold my breath
I cross my fingers

I plan our lives together
I muse about our future

This is when I scream "It's not fair!"
Though the words don't slip from my mouth
I'm not that open

This is when I cry
Missing your hugs and kisses
Though you've never set your eyes on me

This is when I pray
Because God's will is the only way
I will ever be a part of your precious life.

My beautiful, loving, wonderful
Child.

I have never been graced
With the positive test

Never felt the panic
Because I'm not ready for this

We've been responsible

We've been patient

We're going to wait

All my FaultI'm sorry for all the problems
I'm sorry what my life turned out to be
It must be all my fault
you guys must hate me dearly....

I'm sorry for whatever I did...
But I'm just a child with problem
It must be all my fault
after all parents aren't wrong...

I'm sorry for making your life miserable
I'm sorry that I wasn't worth you time
Everything must of been my fault
Cause after all I'm a child with problems...

I'm sorry for every wrong I did
I'm sorry for making this life a nightmare
It must be all my fault
cause I have issues in life

I wish I could take it back
I wish I never had these problems...
I'm sorry for everything
More

Roses bleed redRoses bleed red.

Violets bruise blue.

Sugar is bitter.

And I am too.

Resignation Once, for all
Truth comes alive
Life moves on,
I'm wasting time

Agree or disagree
Everything changes
Time ticks away
Our lives, our souls

The pain
The sorrow
The nostalgia
The bitterness

Eating us alive
But deep down
It exists,
The happiness within

Loved, Avenged, and ReunitedI'm not the same when I'm here

You have changed my thoughts
You have change my voice

I cannot go back

My want rebels against my need
My desire outweighs my reason
There is no reason behind this
Nothing makes sense about it
But I will not leave it

I find that I want to stay here with you
May it be against my will or with it I cannot tell
Do you deliberately torture me?
Or are you as conflicted as I?

This desire is great, but I cannot name it
I cannot put a reason to it
I cannot get away from it
It will always be here

When I am with you I am no longer lost
You changed me into someone I am proud of

If this was love then how was

PromisesYou are my;
love,
my happiness.

You are my;
world,
my everything.

You are my;
purpose,
my reason.

You are the one to save me from the one person of which I fear the most.
...myself.

I tried to show you.
I tired to tell you.

I tried.
I really did.

I made a promise to myself,
and someone important to you.

I would do whatever it took to make sure that you felt happiness
and not the pain you had felt you whole life.

Whatever it took.
Whatever it took...
That's what I always said.

If I had known when I made that promise,
to myself and someone important to you.

That in order for you to feel happiness,
I would have to let yo

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by ~Zoey113, Dec 11, 2012, 12:47:56 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

I'm the girl who is always mocked for how i look
For how i dress
What music i listen to
My opinions
My faults
My everything

I sit in bed and cry
Not because of what they say hurts
Because it does
But because I'm not appreciated

I'm alone
Wondering down a path
Called life
I try my best
But nothing works
I don't eat because I'm "too fat"
I listen to my music loud to block all the words
Those words that will stick in my head
Make me cut again

I don't want that
I just want to be freed
I feel so trapped
I cant explain it

I begin to have feelings for someone
They aren't ever mutual
I sit and realise
Once again my hopes are dashed
Its a vicious cycle
Truth is
I've never been told how to love
I've never experienced it
I'm clueless

I feel empty
Yet tears slowly roll down my flushed cheeks
I realise
My depression
Has taken hold of me

Mockedby ~Zoey113

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Just how I feel :/

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joy 1 1

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~~mad 0 0~~

sad 1 1

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~thatnerdyowl56 Jan 4, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

You have the strength inside you to break your trap... You just have to let go of all those people who judge you, no matter how difficult it is...

~Zoey113 Jan 5, 2013

Awh, thank you so much for that

it's hard because I'm so used to being judged and now Im trying to let go.. It sounds silly but yeah

~thatnerdyowl56 Jan 5, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

It makes perfect sense! You're so welcome!

~Zoey113 Jan 5, 2013

Awh thank you

~TheManThatLaughed Dec 14, 2012 Hobbyist Artist

Im sorry... Britain can be a real shit hole..

I know you dont know me or anything but you same like a awesome person

~Zoey113 Dec 14, 2012

Aw, thank you

~TheManThatLaughed Dec 15, 2012 Hobbyist Artist

Heh heh any time

~xXxAssassin1401xXx Dec 12, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

Your writing is good, but, in my opinion, I think you'll find yourself quite silly later on looking back at this. :/ I wrote a lot of stuff like this, too, and it does help, but publishing it out there is well...a bit too far.

~pingelot Dec 12, 2012 Hobbyist Photographer

that's almost excactly my feeling..

~Zoey113 Dec 12, 2012

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