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I slowly open my eyes
Unaware of last nights low
Then it hits me
Like a thousand knives

I lie in bed and begin to remember everything
Or was it a dream?
I check messages i sent last night
Nope,its the real deal
I'm scared
Confused
Alone

I get like this when someone i like
Knows i like them
Its an uncontrollable feeling
A defence mechanism
To stop me feeling pain from the rejection
Despite all the rejection I've experienced

I lie in bed and stare at the white ceiling
With music in my ears
My cheeks flush
I'm so ashamed

Do i apologise to him
Do i leave it?
I don't want him to think I'm weird
Or anything negative
I've heard too much negativity
Over the past 10 years
Why cant things be positive for once?

I'm confused
Dazed
Unaware of things
He probably doesn't care
But stupid old me
Has to make things awkward

Ill risk what's left and tell him I'm sorry one last time..
Just wrote this, feel abit meh.. Any feedback would be appreciated
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choco-latte-squirrel Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
:huggle: That's all. :3
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2012
Thank you
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choco-latte-squirrel Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
Welcome.
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MedusaArt Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2012  Student General Artist
I'm going to tell my crush that I like her today, so I'm really nervous and know how you feel. :hug:
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2012
Awh, that's so sweet, well my crush knows I like him and he said its cute so that's cool :) thank you for reading my work :3 hope it went well
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MedusaArt Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2012  Student General Artist
She doesn't like me back. :(
You're welcome about reading your work, you're a good writer.
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2012
awh hun I've noted you, and thank you
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MedusaArt Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2012  Student General Artist
You're welcome!
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InGodzHandz Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2012  Professional Photographer
I know how you feel. It can be so embarrassing!
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2012
yeahh :/
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InGodzHandz Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2012  Professional Photographer
Don't worry though. You'll get through it.
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2012
Thank you :)
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InGodzHandz Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2013  Professional Photographer
You're welcome! Stay strong!
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013
Thank you & ill try
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InGodzHandz Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2013  Professional Photographer
Ask God for strength.
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WillowOshawottSprite Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I used to feel like this, when i sent a message to my crush i liked him, he said he dgaf so i'm not talking to him anymore, he's a d**k!!!
If they can't accept you, they arn't worth it hunny!! :huggle:
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2012
awh hun thank you, yeah he said he doesnt hate me for liking him so thats okay :)
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WillowOshawottSprite Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
:highfive:
I glad everything worked out for you, i would hate to think others have gone through what i have had to experience...
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2012
mehh i still feel crap thoughh :( it must be a defence mechanism. ive always been rejected so i always get like this when i like someone sometimes its different if i really really like the person.. imean the lad who i told last night (i sound like a slag :facepalm:dont worry im not) i really really like him, whereas the lad i liked before him i thought i like but he was just a dick
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WillowOshawottSprite Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
well, the guy is liked practically called me a slag, even though i have never had a boyfirend. he's more a the man-whore. How does that work?

Don't worry, i don't think your a slag, your like me but prettier...
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2012
Awh I highly doubt that, you are prettier I'm not pretty.. And I've pretty much had the same thing to :/
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WillowOshawottSprite Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Nope, your prettier!

He called you a slag? SLAP THAT DOUCHE!!!!!!!
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2012
haha yeahh :P and awh thank you :p
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DeadSkarlett Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2012
:huggle: past is past don't hold onto, move on.
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2012
:hug:
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DeadSkarlett Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2012
:)
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MandyMullins2 Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2012
I think it's a good idea to apologize, just in order for him to understand what happened....though I don't think you really did anything wrong. It was involuntary :huggle:.
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Zoey113 Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2012
:hug: yeah I will deffo apologise I feel bad :( :hug: thank you
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MandyMullins2 Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2012
You're welcome! :huggle:
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